Wednesday, November 14, 2007

+ Pregnant +

Sept 24 Monday - period due. Didn't even cross my mind to test. I felt nothing. Convinced myself that I would feel something if I was.

Sept 25 Tuesday - told my friend M I was going to wait till Thursday to test. But at lunch break, was hit with panic. Drove to walmart. Tested in the bathroom at work. Saw the + pretty quickly. A bit freaked out. Immediately talked to M. she was very excited - that helped. I needed to hear someone excited! Hoping it would rub off on me… we brainstormed ideas on how to tell husband...

husband asked if I tested. 'No' I lied. Drove home, thinking of going to buy some baby item at Kmart to give to Husband when he got home from class that night. Much to my disbelief, here he comes in the door! Got done with work early so he came home for dinner! Yikes. I knew I had to tell him before he left for school. Couldn't hold the news. He went upstairs to change and I panicked - I need a creative way to tell him? I opened the fridge, scanned over milk, juice, ketchup, apples, hamburger buns. A bun! Bun in the oven!?! I placed one bun in the very center of the oven and turned on the oven light. Preparing dinner with Husband, asked him to toast our garlic bread. He turns on the oven and glances in.

He says "hey, theres a bun in the oven. Did you put that in there?"

"Oh well, yea I did."

He's clueless. He stares. "What are you doing? Are you trying to make me eat this bun for garlic bread? Cause I'm not going to!"

"No. its not that." Now I'm laughing. "What did you say? Repeat it."

"I said there is a bun in the oven. Why did you put that in there!?"

"say it again - repeat that sentence! Think about it!"

"There - is - a - bun - in - the - oven… ??" Then it hits him. He smiles. "Are you?!!"

So, my creative bun in the oven idea did not go as planned. Husband laughed at his cluelessness during dinner. "I said there's a bun in the oven at least 4 times and still didn't get it…" he chuckled. Sigh. He's excited. Happy. But neither of us believe it.

Sept 28 Friday - Husband insists on taking another test. Just to confirm. We go buy one. Why buying a pregnancy test embaresses me I do not know - but it does. I always make Husband go to the register as I stand to the side as if its not for me! Lol. We go home. I take the test. Husband uses the video camera to tape the + sign appearing. We see it clearly. +

Oct 4 Thursday - called my OBGYN to setup my first prenatal appt. They don't want to see me until I'm 8-10 weeks. I'm fine with that. Husband wants me there asap and is puzzled why I have to wait so long. I'm feeling really good. Stupidly convince myself I'm going to have mild symptoms. Boy was I in for a shock.

Oct 5 Friday - 6 weeks pregnant today. My parents arrive for a long weekend visit. We've agreed to wait till the first trimester is complete before telling them. Easy hiding the pregnancy from them because my only symptoms are sore boobs and needing to eat 3 meals a day for once. Don't think they suspected a thing.

Oct 9 Tuesday - left for work at 6am. Parents departed to go back to TN. Later that morning, was hit with a wave of nausea. What timing. They leave - I get sick. Thank goodness it wasn't while they were here. I battle with nausea all day long. By night time, its wretched. I'm vomiting and cannot sleep.

Oct 10 Wednesday - somehow manage to get to work. By noon, I couldn't do it - had to leave early. Pulled over on the drive home to puke in a parking lot. Puked about 8-10 more times that night. Can't keep down crackers or water. Been two days since I've kept anything down, even liquids. Completely miserable.

Oct 11 Thursday - more of the same. Vomitting and nausea 24/7. Have lost 4 lbs in the last 3 days. Called the OB's office. Said haven't kept even liquids down for 2 1/2 days and lost weight. They suggest Emetrol - an over the counter syrup that soothes an upset stomach. Rush to buy it. Tastes like shit but take the full adult dose. It helps. I sleep. Was able to go to class and eat saltines. Panicked about our DC trip with E & M. Hope I'm not miserable.

Oct 12 Friday - 7 weeks today. leaving for DC today too. Emetrol seems to help. Take my morning dose. Feel better. Able to eat some toast, brown rice, and keep down ginger ale. Packed food - dry cereal, crackers, ginger ale, etc. feeling best I've felt in 4 days. Still not 100% but good enough to enjoy our trip. On way to DC, discussed when to tell the folks. Aaron wants to tell his mom asap whereas I prefer to wait until Christmas! He Strongly disagrees with waiting that long. I thought it would be a nice xmas surprise! I begrudgingly agree we can tell them over thanksgiving weekend. Hate my mom not knowing but I do want to tell her in person because I have a feeling she's going to be REALLY shocked! Ha. Plus, I want to be far enough along that we are 'in the clear'. Thanksgiving weekend I'll be 13 weeks so first trimester will be over.

Oct 15 Monday - back from dc yesterday. Felt good for the trip. Had a great time. But today - back to sick. Worked all day but on the drive home - overcome with nausea. Took the emetrol - no help. Didn't keep anything down all day. Lots of vomiting at work. In the bathroom and even the parking lot. Ugh. Home - more of same.

Oct 16 Tuesday - worse than yesterday. Managed to get to work about 9am after stopping on the Blvd to throw up a popsicle. Severe sickness during work. Completed 6 hours of work and then left - couldn't stay. Again, pulled over on the way home. Haven't kept down anything for two more days. Feel very dehydrated. Talked to nurse at OB's office. She's concerned I can't keep down liquids. Said I need Zofran, a rx med. Afraid to take it b/c the baby but - can't function! No choice. Husband takes me to CVS. Threw up in their bathroom while waiting on the rx. Took first pill that night. Helped a great deal… whew. Nurse also scheduled me for an ultrasound to confirm a viable pregnancy, not another molar.

Oct 19 Friday - 8 weeks today. Zofran helps. I'm able to go to work and class and function in my daily life for the most part. Symptom that’s annoying me this week - constant thirst! I drink and it doesn't help. Been trying to consume mostly water but the taste of water is not good to me. Before I drank 64oz faithfully every day! Now, I struggle to get in 40. I've added a bottle of vitamin water - the dragon fruit kind. I freeze it at work and then drink it when it becomes slushy. Pretty good. Doing this with my water too. Taking Flintstone vitamins instead of huge prenatals. They hurt my stomach. The flintstones aren't too bad.

Oct 22 Monday - took the zofran but still battling nausea. Didn't go to work. Can't stand puking in the bathroom with strange coworkers in next stall thinking I have a deadly illness. Ultrasound at 3:30. Husband went along. We're both thinking its another molar pregnancy. Prepared for that news. We were wrong. It’s the real deal. The tech points the little tyke out on the screen.

"That’s a real baby in there?" Husband asks.

"It sure is!" she says as she checks the heartbeat. Good and strong at 163.

Ultrasound estimates that I'm 7 weeks and 1 day today. This means a due date of June 8. OB said June 1. So, Husband and I agree - we'll say the 5th:-)

Oct 26 Friday - 9 weeks today. Not vomiting anymore thanks to the medicine but still not feeling great. Lots of horrible headaches (I refuse to take any other meds!) and nausea comes in waves. I'm having a side effect of zofran - constipation. I only thought I had constipation before. Ha. No - real constipation is so unbelievably uncomfortable … nurse suggests taking zofran only once per day instead of twice. Then maybe every other day. Only able to eat bits of food at the time. Can't consume an actual meal. Left today for NC to see R.

Nov 1 Thursday - first meeting with OBGYN at Great Valley OBGYN, Exton, PA. Saw Dr. Sarah Wheeler. Couldn't get a real feel for her - couldn't tell if I liked her or not. She seemed a bit exasperated with me a couple of times - partly because of my hesitation to get a flu shot and me saying that beans and legumes had protein. (which by the way, I checked when I went home and beans ARE a good source of protein!). She even said these words - "if you get the flu while you're pregnant, it could kill you and the baby." Um, not exactly what you want to say to a pregnant person right? Just a thought. She was supportive of my vegetarian diet saying it was fine which was nice. She mentioned a bit of fluid on the last ultrasound - but said it otherwise looked good. She wants me to have another one in 2 weeks. She advised take Zofran only as needed now and start taking 1-2 colace per day, a stool softener. Fingers crossed that helps.

The biggest downfall of the visit was the check out woman who was supposed to schedule my next appt. Not a nice woman! I was needing a Friday b/c I've already missed a lot of work. She was immediately snippy saying she would just give me what they had! Grrr. After a couple dates that I could not accept she was clearly irritated stating, "well I have to put you somewhere!" I took the next appt she said knowing I couldn't do that day. Vented to husband about the ups and downs of the appt. We agree - I'll give it one more appt and then decide whether to stay with them or not.

Nov 2 Friday - 10 weeks today. Symptoms are the same with a few new ones. Sore boobs, headaches, nausea, constant thirst - all still there. I have times when I just don't feel well but can't place what the problem is. Just not feeling good is what I tell husband. Also a new symptom - feeling exhausted! Didn't hit me till this past week. Very tired. Getting up at 5am is a real struggle for me in general but especially now. Try to go to the car on lunch break to snooze a bit - sometimes it happens, sometimes not. One symptom I have not had - moodiness. I read that I would have it pretty bad in the first trimester. But I'm feeling very emotionally normal and fine. Husband agrees its not been an issue at all so - I'm not just in some delusion ha. I'm sure moodiness can come at anytime in the pregnancy but - glad I'm not battling that with this other crap.

Nov 3 Saturday - lunch with friends T & S. Told them the news. They were shocked to say the least. Glad that S knows. She loaned me 4 books and even a dvd. We talked about using some of their baby stuff to save money. So nice having them in the neighborhood.

Nov 9 Friday - 11 weeks today. Still having all the same symptoms and not able to eat much. Put back on most of the weight I lost from sickness. Still need to gain 1lb to be back to normal weight. Not able to eat much of real substance though. Called B, high school friend from TN today - its her bday. Told her the news. She's very shocked. Feels weird telling people. Feel like its not true haha…

Nov 13 Tuesday - had a long weekend with no plans. Was off Fri, Sat, Sun, and Mon! I was a lazy ass and did LOTS of sleeping. The exhaustion is tough. Saturday was okay during the day but when we went out that night, started feeling awful. I think the vitamin irritated my stomach. Almost threw up in the bushes at barnes & noble. Saturday night - suffered and battled nausea and a bad headache all night. Sunday morning - more of same. Got up at 10, ate breakfast, back to bed and slept till 12:30pm! Nuts. Finally gave in and took half a zofran - helped. Monday, lots of sleeping and rest therefore, this morning it was a nightmare to get up. Felt sick driving to work. Had to take a zofran. Not taking it much anymore though. I'm glad. Feel guilty I had to take something.

When I got home from work I had a decent dinner. Afterward I zonked on the couch and jolted away 30 minutes later. Forced myself up because I want to have a good nights sleep. Yet when 10pm rolls around, I cannot fall asleep to save my life. I toss, turn, put socks on, take them on, fluff my pillow, don't use my pillow, sigh. Finally somewhere around 11:30 - sleep came. Midnight I'm awakened by a crash from Husband's beside. 'What the hell was that?!' 'oh sorry. i hit my lamp and it fell along with everything else'. Dammit! So, I was awake again till 12:30am... lack of sleep is not a good thing when you're pregnant AND waking up at 5am! Grrrr... I remind myself - not his fault. it was an accident. be rational... haha. i hope this pep talk with always work in the next 6 months:)


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